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Salt Flats 100 Starting Line - M. Lebowitz |
I'm a believer that we are born to run. And, over the
years I have come to believe that a life lived asking the question, "where
can I run next?" can be rewarding and enjoyable. Sometimes it can be as
simple as a run combining errands, perhaps running to or from work, or maybe a
trot to explore vacation sites seldom frequented by most tourists who just walk
(or even fail to get out of their cars or off the bus), or maybe it is the
unplanned race - where the date and location somehow align with one's plans and
obligations.
I recently experienced the later, where I was able to
pass through Salt Lake City for a combination of work and personal matters over
the weekend of the 2013 Salt Flats 100. I was giddy with the excitement of
running 100 miles, being in the west desert, and seeing old friends. While my
training over the last several months has been modest, I felt optimistic that I
could have a strong run in that I finally seem to have a handle on the nasty
piriformis that has been plaguing me the last 9 months.
It felt like a family reunion checking-in and
receiving encouraging words from RD Vince Romney and his wife Chriss, seeing
numerous running acquaintances, and having photographer Michael Lebowitz share
some of his recently published work with me.
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Synchronized Running - "Bryon, lift your left foot higher would you?" M. Lebowitz |
From the beginning Bryon Powell and I took the lead.
While the pace was a bit brisk for the first 10 miles across the Salt Flats, I
didn't care in that it was fun to be out front, It felt good to be moving
quickly, and I was enjoying Byron's company. We chatted about Meghan's Marathon
des Sables win, his preparations for Western States, and my work. Time passed
quickly and effortlessly as I allowed Bryon to displace some of my anxiety as
to when Scott Dickey would go flying past me at a pace I would not be able to
keep.
During the first climb at about mile 23 it was a
"Houston, we have a problem" moment. I was struggling. I was climbing
slowly and expending more energy that usual. Reality hit, living at sea level
and having the only vertical in my life being the stairs to my office on the
third floor wasn't cutting it. I laughed to myself as I repeated in my head
over and over, "vert matters." Then I laughed at the irony of my
office being moved to the first floor next month and my daily vertical training
being reduced even more. "So screwed," I thought to myself.
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Crater Island - M. Lebowitz |
Bryon and I were ahead of the aid station at mile 31
which created some concern given the next 20 miles were desolate, exposed, and
the day was warming. Fortunately Adrienne was there and was able to fill our
bottles and replace our gels. We were then off on my favorite part of the
course. I love the climbs and descents on Crater Island. It feels otherworldly
to me. While I'm not a geologist I can just tell the rock is old. I treasure
the vistas in all directions with no visible human presence. I cherish the
loneliness I feel on this section. I went to that other place and was running
well.
Bryon slowly pulled away. He had indicated that he
intended to drop at 50 miles so I was able to let him go without stressing
about when and where I might reel him back. It felt good to be alone. Many
people find the mud flats, or the "moonscape" as I call it from mile
40-50 the hardest section of the course. I quite enjoy it since there is
nothing else quite like it. For some reason this year it was unusually slow.
The crust seemed softer and deeper than past years and I struggled to stay
under a 10-minute mile, yet I was working as if I was running 8-minute miles.
The soft alkaline soil just sucked the energy out of every foot strike. While I
still felt good, I knew I was exerting energy that I should be saving for
later. I tried to forget that I was able to run at an 8:30 pace through the
"moonscape" last year.
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Where's the gas? - M. Lebowitz |
My hope was to head out of the 50 mile AS and start
opening it up over the next 11 miles which are flat. As I pushed on the
throttle, I found that there was nothing there. While I felt reasonably good - nothing
hurt and my head was in a good place - I just didn't have any gas. I plodded
along running 9-minute miles thinking how weird is this, “I feel just fine but
I just can't move.” I decided not to fight it and just lumber along believing
that a second wind would be coming shortly.
At 62 miles as I started the eastward climb over
Silver Island I still had no gas. I struggled on the gradual climb, continually
looking back to see when Joachim Kempf from Germany would be reeling me in. I
couldn't see him and secretly hoped that the heat, the moonscape, and the likelihood
that he hadn't been able to attach a tractor beam onto me had him feeling no
better than I felt.
The aid station volunteers at the Salt Flats 100 were
amazing - many of them addressing me by my name. The effort of looking at an
entrant list and knowing the names of the runners based their numbers is pretty
remarkable. The welcome that I received at the mile 67 AS lifted my spirits.
The westward climb over Silver Island was no better
than the previous climb. Where was my energy? How could I find some gas? What
would get me moving at a faster pace? I was hopeful that once I connected with
my pacer Peter Lindgren somewhere near mile 75 that I would pull it together.
My spirits lifted as I saw Peter running towards me!
It was great to see Peter. He did a quick assessment
and knew that calories might be the answer. In went the calories - a couple of
gels and a Coke, but still no gas. Even though we weren't moving quickly, I was
enjoying listening to him update me on life in SLC. At about mile 78 a figure
was running towards us, I was pleased to see that it was Dennis Ahern running
out to meet me from the mile 81 AS. It was good to catch-up with Dennis.
Mile 81 AS was a special treat, a hug from Emily
Berriochoa, a hello and a big smile from Mike Place, flat Coke and a ripe
banana waiting just for me. My spirits were lifted. Maybe this would be the
turning point. I changed shirts and put on my lights, and headed out with Peter
on the 7-mile climb to the summit of our final crossing of Silver Island. I
felt better for several miles, then again the energy wasn't there. I asked
Peter to just talk so that I could listen and have his words pull me along.
Near the summit I believed I saw lights behind us. It
was the inevitable. Joachim had finally reeled me in and having seen our lights
would be going for the kill. I dug deep and tried to move faster. We picked up
the pace, but I could tell I was running on fumes and that this plane was
likely going to crash in the English Channel having burned every last ounce of
fuel before reaching the coast of England.
At the 90 mile AS I knew I needed fuel. I drank a can
of Coke while trying to remain steady on my feet. I had trouble keeping my
balance. "Wow" I thought to myself, "I have never been this
spent. "And, "it's weird how I don't even hurt." It was good to
say a quick hello to speedsters Robert. Mueller and Amie Blackham.
I was quickly on my way believing Joachim was less
than a mile behind me. On the descent back to the lake bed Peter and I chatted
about what might a model for evaluating the quality of a pacer look like. While
engaged in the present conversation with Peter, my mind reflected on what a
talented pacer Peter is. Peter knew not to say trite words like "your
doing great," since we both knew that was not true. He also knew not to
play with my head about the need to push harder to hold onto my lead. He knew
that motivation needed to come from me. He also knew that there was no point in
encouraging me to go faster and utilize the tricks good pacers know to coax a
little more speed out of their runner. He just knew that what I needed was his
presence. That simply being there was what I needed most for this race. I felt
honored to have both a good friend, and someone with such a honed talent for
pacing with me on these final miles.
Paislee, Vince's daughter put a smile on my face when
she welcomed me to the final AS at mile 90 with "we've been waiting for
you and we have a flat Coke waiting because we know that is what you
like." Wow, it doesn't get any better than this.
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Resting at the Finish - M. Lebowitz |
The lights that I had seen earlier were imaginary. Nobody
was behind me and I just needed to finish for the win. I plodded onward knowing
the last 5 miles were going to take me more than an hour. I tried not to think
about how slow I was moving and rather focused on the beauty of the evening,
the full moon, the still and crisp desert air, the company. I could see what I
believed to be the finish lights off in the distance. But I knew from last year
that the distance was deceptive and that I just needed to keep running and try
to avoid the discouragement of the lights never seeming to get any closer. Once
we had the finish clearly in sight and could see figures moving in the dark,
Peter finally did some ass chewing and told me to pick it up so we could go
under 18. Perfect timing and just what I needed as we were able to cross the
finish in 17:59:30.
While it wasn't a good day in terms of my time, I
celebrated that it had been a great day with friends, that I was again healthy,
and I could run without pain and feeling broken. And, that any disappointment
in my day had been offset by the sheer joy of being out in the desert with
these friends doing what we all enjoy so much - running.